Here are the ones of Paige and I hugging Wes. Bella came with us too!

First of all I must say I am quite proud of myself for blogging so much lately. =) So, I was having Starbucks with Chad the other day, and Paige called. She asked if we wanted to go up to Wes' gravesight. (which was cool because I was planning on going up there anyways) So, we met up there and it was absolutely perfect! It use to be hard for me to go up there, but this time I felt at peace. Who knows, maybe next time I will ball like a big baby. =) We took some pictures of us hugging Wes and lying next to him. Thanks Paige and Chad for a perfect day. I love you both so much.

WELL Well well...5 of us girls were suppose to have a "girls night" out. It ended up being just 2 of us. We had a lot of fun though!!! Just see for yourself...

So, I have not posted anything since memorial day and quite a bit has happened. My life has changed drastically in the passed few months and I could not be happier with it. I have 2 incredible jobs, amazing friends and well, we all know how I feel about my family.

I went to Hawaii for the first time and it was absolutely beautiful. I have lots of pics, but I will only post a few of my favorites.

So, I am sure you are all wondering about the whole divorce thing and dating scene. My divorce was finalized on April 29th!!! Since then, I have gone on a few dates. It is SO weird. I don't mind feeling cared about though. It is a nice change to have someone take me out instead of the other way around. I guess chivalry is not dead yet. I am not dating anyone seriously, I don't think I will be for a while. Let's just say I have committment and trust issues. I am sure you can figure out why. =)

Well, I better get going. I have a few things to do before I go back to work tomorrow.

Pictures from Memorial Day 2008

Memorial Day 2008

So, I don't know how to make my posts look cute and make the words match up to where the pictures are, so I am going to write first and then post the pics.

Today, I did a whole lot of nothing until Paige called and we decided to go to see Wes. When I first drove up all I saw was flags and flowers. It was an incredible sight. The cemetery was full of families showing their loved ones they still care. Just seeing that brought tears to my eyes.

Now that we know the exact spot of Wesley's resting place it was a little harder to go up there. Ok, actually a lot harder. Paige and I took pictures by Wes. We turned around to see the amazing view and the sun was beaming through the clouds. Paige told me that that is what she saw in the sky on her way to the hospital the morning Wes passed away. We decided to take some pictures of us walking towards him.

Wesley's Graduation

This passed weekend was PERFECT. A lot of exciting things happended and lots of emotions were involved. If you want to see pictures and hear about our weekend take a loot at Rachel's blog. She worded everything better than I ever could. Thanks Rach. www.arjanderson.blogspot.com

So, for the passed 2 days or so I have had a very strong feeling to go te Wes' final resting place. After debating with myself as to whether or not I was strong enough to go alone, I lost the battle and went. I worked until 4 and so I went home and worked on dishes and stuff and I kept thinking about it. Right then, Paige called. I talked to her about it, and she encouraged me to go. I put on Wesley's sweatshirt and pants that I borrowed when we went tumbling. On my way, I put in a CD that I hadn't listened to in a while. I put it on #3 and it was a song about having a big heart and serving others. Naturally I started crying like a big baby. I finally get there and I sat down next to where I THOUGHT he was. None of us really know the exact spot where he was burried but we all kinda guess. I lost all control of my emotions and just sat there and cried. It felt really good, but it was extremely hard. I talked to him for a few minutes which was nice. I know he was listening because I felt him there. I feel blessed to live so close to him. After a while of chatting with him and cying I left. I went to Target to get some things and I saw Mikey, Wes' good friend and Manager at Mimi's. We talked for a minute and that made me cry. I start looking around and a Target employee comes up to me and asks if I am finding everything ok. I look up at him and glanced at his name tag and his name was Wes. So, AGAIN I cried. I am such a cry baby! That is ok though. Well, that was my night. I took some pics of me and the view. My eyes are all red but it's all good. =)

Back in Utah...

So, now that I am back in the swing of things here in Provo, I thought I would take some pics of my life the passed couple days. I was looking outside today right after the sun went down, and it was so beautiful. The picture does not do the view justice. I wish you could all see how incredible it is up here. The other pics are just of me being a nerd. One wsa taken today when I was at my computer. I promised Rachel I would post tonight and so I thought I would take a pic of me posting! =) The other one I took last night. I was so unbelievably tired. It was almost midnight, I had just got done studying and I still had to make a cake for Marcia's birthday. I could have bought a cake, but I have no money and I think it means more when you make it yourself. Besides, I LOVE to cook and bake! =)

Next is Easter in Acton

I was pretty sick when I was in Cali so unfortunately I was not able to hold Ryan Wesley...actually the last night I was there I held him for a quick minute. He is SO perfect. I also spent time with Ivan, Mya, Zoe and Jackson. They have all grown up SO much. On Saturday Curtis and Tristan invited all of us over to have a traditional Irish meal. I had never had corned beef and cabbage before and I must say it was mmmmmm...nummers...haha =)

so it's been a while...

I guess I should back up a little bit. I have lots of pics to post and quite a few things to say. First of all, I would like to start by talking about Easter. I had such an incredible time in Cali with my family. Coming back to Utah was extremely hard, I even cried a little...ok so I cried like a baby with a dirty diaper. =) The first couple pics are of me in the car at about 3 a.m. We were about an hour from Acton and I could not sleep!

So, my mom, sister and her wonderful kids are out visiting for the week. We were at Albertson's getting a movie at the RedBox. There was a yellow M&M display. Zoe was playing and sticking her head in it and messing around. My mom told her several times to stop or else her head would get stuck. She had her head inside of it and Tori told her to get her head out. She tried to pull it out and said, "I CAN'T" She started freaking out. While Tori was struggling to get her head out of the giant yellow M&M my mom and I could not help but laugh. I had to take a picture to capture the moment. It took Tori about 10 minutes to free Zoe.

Since tomorrow is Valentines Day, I decided to make a little something for the wonderful people at work. I hope they enjoy it. It is almost 3 am and I just finished. It really didnt take me that long, I just got home late. Paige and I had an INCREDIBLE massage. Shilo is amazing. Well, I am bored so I took pics of what I made and decided to post them. =) I think Rachel will get the most enjoyment out of these.