Good Morning!

Today I woke up feeling great! Thanks to my wonderful parents my apartment is looking SO cute! I am sad they are leaving in 2 days, but I will see them again soon. I haven't posted any pics of my apartment or the view or anything yet, so I decided today would be a great day to do it. The weather has been horrible. Today is sunny...FREEZING, but atleast the sun is out. Well, here is the view from my apartment.! Soon, I'll take pics of the inside, but it is not quite done yet. Love you all!

Out of Sight Out of Mind

Well, I am officially living on my own. For the passed 2-3 weeks Kioa has been living with me, but he would leave for days at a time and would never know where he was or when he was coming home. When he was not at the house with me, it was hard the first night, but then I was ok. As soon as I started enjoying being by myself and was ok with it, he would come home. I was not going to live like this for 3 months. So, this weekend we packed up all his stuff and now he is living with one of his cousins in Salt Lake. Last night was the first night he was "officially" moved out. It was hard, a lot of tears and sadness, but I was able to get SOME sleep, and today I feel ok. It seems like whenever I am with him, I cry and it is hard, but when he is "out of sight" I am ok and can deal with it. Any words of wisdom for me? Anything that will make this easier? I know it will get easier with time and I know I made the right choice, but it is just hard. Well, I better get back to work, but I am looking forward to my future!

Love you all, and have a wonderful week!

I haven't blogged in a while so I thought I would write a little something for everyone. Right now I am at work. It is a pretty slow day. I have had such an emotionally draining week and I am hoping it gets better. Lately I haven't been able to sleep. Last night I actually got a little sleep which was SO nice! I am trying to train myself to sleep alone again. It is so hard to sleep alone when you are use to sleeping with someone every night. Sleeping alone gives me time to think at night in bed. I don't like that. The only things I can think about are the day Wes passed away and the divorce. It SUCKS! Thinking about those things makes me sad and scared and then I really can't fall asleep. Anyways, sorry to complain to all of you that read this (RACHEL) but I gotta let it out. Hopefully I will have a camera soon so I can put some pics up.